Why I Didn’t Dare to Finish the Book: A Journey Through Pain and Reflection
Sometimes it may happen to us that we go through tough times or feel like we have nothing. It could be a natural rule or depend on a person’s mindset. Most people forget their previous life when they achieve financial success.
I didn’t think much about what happened to me. Every time, I tried to forget the bad things I faced from the people who lived closest to me.
In my daily life, I try to read self-help books to relieve stress and gather some ideas from others’ perspectives. On May 23, 2022, I bought a book and started reading. From the beginning, there was a recurring question the girl asked herself: “Why can’t I have that?” It was shocking for me to see such a question from a young girl.
The story begins with a young girl whose mother is living in Canada while she lives in Lebanon with her father, who is struggling to achieve financial success. I read continuously until I reached a short story the little girl shared. After reading it, I didn’t dare to finish the book.
As I write this blog post on July 03, 2024, I realize that I started reading this book on May 23, 2022, but I still haven’t finished it. I bookmarked the page and stopped reading. For the first time, this happened to me.
Below, I am sharing the exact story from the book:
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“I don’t remember the exact date, but I was around eight or nine years old, staying at my aunt’s home. My mom was in Canada at the time and my dad had work and thought that I’d be better taken care of with my aunt. It was the night before Eid, a major Muslim celebration. My aunt came and asked her kids to go downstairs. She told me to stay where I was because this was “our Family Time,” meaning the family did not include me.
I was left alone in the empty room upstairs, staring at the metal fireplace in front of me. I could hear my cousins opening gifts, their laughter pouring through the walls. They sounded so happy as they exclaimed, ‘Look what I got!’ to one another.
All my heart could say then was, ‘Why can’t I have that?'”
Welcome Home By Najwa Zebian
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Reading this part, my eyes got watery. I didn’t have enough courage to finish it.
It’s incredible how much a person can suffer at any age. This story reminds us of the emotional struggles many endure, often in silence.
